My Personal Story
As the youngest of three girls, I often felt ignored and a bit bullied by my sisters. I sometimes wished I had never been born. I felt like I didn’t belong. In retrospect, I think I was more sensitive than the average child. One night when I was about 10-years-old, I was lying in bed feeling particularly unhappy. In my mind, I made a desperate plea for help. The next thing I knew I was communicating with an invisible being. I heard a woman saying, “Hang in there, you have a long life ahead of you and it will get better.” She also told me I would be a good mother one day. I always loved kids so I asked about my kids. The next thing I knew, I saw a virtual movie of a young boy and girl. They were beautiful kids and they seemed to be communicating their love and concern for me. I even got a sense of their personalities. One seemed calm and confident while the other was quite nervous.
I knew that what I was experiencing was real and amazing and other-worldly. That experience was so loving and comforting. It gave me hope and strength to move forward in life knowing that I had divine guidance and support. From that moment on, I also knew that I would have two children, a boy and a girl (and that is what I have).
Many years later, when my daughter was about 8 years old, I felt the presence of my spiritual guide again. This time I was a skeptical adult so I asked for proof that she was real. I was emptying the dishwasher and as soon as I had the thought that I wanted proof, the glass I was holding got knocked out of my hand and it fell to the ground and broke. My daughter was sitting in the den watching TV in front of the coffee table where she had just finished eating a bowl of cereal. In my mind I asked if my daughter was there, too. The next thing I knew, her cereal bowl flew up in the air and crashed back down on the table (without breaking). My daughter looked up at me with a puzzled look on her face and said, “I’m sorry mom but I have no idea how that just happened.” I told her that it was okay, I knew how it happened.
My childhood experience spurred my interest in everything spiritual and it also gave me a deep compassion for children. Kids are so vulnerable to the words and actions of parents and siblings. I felt a strong desire to find a way to empower children. Although my career path took a slight detour, I eventually got a Master’s degree in clinical psychology, specializing in marriage and family therapy. Working as a therapist feels like I’m living my passion. I love working with families and children because if children can feel heard and parents can learn how to guide children respectfully than children might grow up with less sadness and emotional pain from childhood experiences. It’s great to help families but I also love individual counseling because everyone has an inner child that yearns to be healed.
My spiritual experience as a child as well as many intuitive hits and synchronicity led to my lifelong curiosity about life and death and spirituality. When I interacted with my spiritual guide, it wasn’t just an “ordinary” telepathic communication. I felt her presence as a wave of deep love infusing every cell of my body. I truly knew how much I was loved. That love sustained me and helped me cope with whatever difficulty came my way. I know from firsthand experience that there is much more to life than what we experience with our five senses. I believe that most religions do not do justice to spirituality and in many cases they do a disservice to the human need for a personal relationship with spirit. The belief that a higher power guides and supports us through life can be freeing. It takes the burden off of our need to do it all alone and that is why spiritual growth is a big part of my counseling practice.